creation

as i sit here procrastinating from studying for my biology test in less than 10 hours, i am pondering the origins of the universe.

dna...deoxyribose nucleic acid...



...is fucking fascinating.

seriously. how can a series of sugars, phosphates, and four different nucleotides make up the genetic code for all of life on earth? how can what is inside every cell in my body be made of the same stuff that composes a simple virus? or a palm tree? or a python?




blowing my mind.



strangely enough, science makes me believe in god more than anything else ever will.


i can't even wrap my head around how life started...with two sets of chromosomes encased in an egg and a sperm converging in a beautiful reunion to create an organism that is alive...that utilizes oxygen to perform metabolic functions, and remain an integral part of life on earth...incredible.

things like this make me sit in silence like a wonderous child, but things like that very same sperm housed in the boner champ eager to make out with me last night makes me want to peace the fuck out (ptfo.)

little children

in one of my classes we have been spending time talking about how freud relates to fairy tales, which is aparently in numerous ways. we first, however, had to discuss the pillars of freudian psychoanalysis, inclding the oedipus complex. basically, it is when a child harbors a hatred towards their parent of their sex to get closer to their parent of the opposite sex, much like oedipus the king (kills his father, marrys his mother.) you get the picture. anyways, the professor of this particular class had no qualms about sharing with the class various examples from his own son's childhood which "cleary demonstrated" how "nicholas" harbored a deep-seeded desire to destroy his father, my professor.

....what?

he compared his child's emotional burden to the fairy tale of the three little pigs. normally, children are supposed to identify with this story and learn from the piggy who built his house out of bricks that hard work pays off. however, some "emotionally disturbed" children identify with the villan, the wolf. my professor's son identified with the wolf, and aparently wanted to appropriate all destructive and evil powers of the wolf in order to over take the wolf, who, in the child's mind, was represented by his father (my professor.) in short, my professor's son had an oedipus complex and wanted to kill his father.

i'm just really not sure i buy all that. i really do not think that children have the knowledge and capacity for learning to properly comprehend the concept of death/killing/hatred. i believe that little boys might identify with the wolf in that story because he's powerful (like a superhero or firefighter is powerful.) and i also do not agree with the notion that every single child that has ever been born or ever will be born on this planet had/has/will have an oedipus complex.




this is the same class in which we discussed how the act of breastfeeding is a way for an infant to experience sexual pleasure.



....


i'm a little disturbed.


on a lighter note, i got another mysterious magazine subsciption in the mail, this time to cosmo, which i nor anyone i know is paying for. sweet.

gender inequality

i was thinking today about how expensive it is to be a girl. it literally is far less expensive to have a y-chromosome. for one thing, society compells us to wear makeup to be aesthetically pleasing, and as the material girls that every single one of us secretly is, we comply, and buy out the whole line of sephora merchandise. and jewelery! engagement/wedding rings (seriously?? 2??) earrings (i have 6 holes...it add$ up) necklaces, bracelets...it just goes on. and any other beauty regiments that many women get on a weekly basis... manicures? facials? massages? jesus christ. we also have to have nice hair cuts. high lights used to be popular. and even just the things we use to mask said haircut? hair elastics? headbands? barrettes?

and what about biology? periods? do men have to purchase wads of cotton with a plastic applicator to stick up their penis' to stop the flow of blood once a month? no. or buy various medications/chocolate to placate thier erratic mood swings during said time of the month? no, but they should anyways.

driving me CRACY.






......what do hermaphrodites do? i was just thinking about whether or not they get their periods...
true hermaphroditism doens't exist in humans, but if it did? that would be weird. what if you gave birth to one? would you give it a gender neutral name?

hahahahaha.

i need to do homework. by the end of the night i'll probably be fluent in french i'll have been studying it for so long.


also, watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z1136E4h5UQ
it blew my mind.

S&M

it is saturday. it is cold in maine. after waking to the joyous sound of gavin degraw streaming out of my cell phone at 6:20 am, i was suprising ready to row this morning. trudging through the fog and duck shit that obstructed my path on the way to the gym, nothing could put a damper on my mood. i had gotten 8 hours of sleep, the party down the hall had been broken up before i fell asleep; things were going my way. we got into the vans, listened to bottoms up about 50 times- it was a great day.

then it wasn't.

what kind of torturous creature gets college students out of bed at 6 am on a saturday, making them forfeit partying on a friday night, to do an AB CIRCUIT?

it was then that i discovered the true meaning of sadomasochism- i truly was being subjected to unpleasant and painful activity to derive pleasure on the behalf of the administrator, my delightful coach.

and thus is the story of another day when i woke up really early for no good reason.